A Little Poetry...

[Jade Chesnut]

This poem is based on an open bible, a tear-stained note, and a true story.

When I come home
There is a ring on the phone
But who would call? I live alone
It's a voice I don't reconize
It says your name and tears fill my eyes
I ask the million, never-endibg hows and whys
The only answer I get is an 'I'm sorry'

The computer glows blue
I see an email from you
It says exactly what you were going to do
But you didn't know
What would happen so

I feel so responsible
That I said that 'd' word
Worse than any cuss word
Stings more than any bee sting
Killing me from the inside

There is a call on the telephone
But who would call? I live alone
I pick it up for the second time
They ask for your story for a million dimes
It would make me rich, but I slam it down
Cause I'm gonna drown in your absense

They're outside my house now
Unwanted by me, but it doesn't matter
They want your story
But i say 'No! Leave me be'
Why did you have to die?

I feel so responsible
That I said the 'd' word
Worse than any cuss word
Stings more than any bee sting
Destroying me from the inside

There is a call on the telephone
But who would call? I live alone
This voice I know
This voice I cared about
This voice should have stopped you

I'm at your funeral
Mum's there too
Why didn't she stop you?
So many things I could have done differently
But it doesn't matter anymore

I do so many things that I shouldn't have done
I smoke and I drink and I try to have fun
But without you I'm nothing
Without you I can't do anything
Why didn't I get to know you more?

I feel so responsible
That I said the 'd' word
Worse than any cuss word
Stings more than any bee sting
Why, Why, Why, Why, Why?

I miss you more than anything
You were a part of me
I think I might just maybe
Be able to move on?

Would you mind?
Would you care?
If I left this state of grief
Would it destroy you as it has destroyed me?
At least I'll see you someday

I feel so responsible
It still haunts me
I've gone to therapy
But it still haunts me
At least I'll see you someday

I go to your grave
Run the dirt through my bare hands
Feel you slipping away from me
Time to move on
Time to forgive and forget
But at least I'll see you again someday
Someday...

[jadechesnut]

This is me. I just joined!

[Floyd Looney]

That is very nice. Thanks for joining.

I usually just scan the page, I didn't notice before. lol. Sorry about that!